My mentor, Crystal Jordan, informed me earlier that the next three months is going to be a flogathon. *wide-eyed stare*

Um, should I be happy? Excited? Terrified? Shaking in my boots? LOL

Better get back to that outline.

I love electronics and gadgets.  They are the perfect gift for me, including kitchen gadgets.  I prefer them over any silly, romantic gift, like candy or flowers.  Puhleaze!

So today we head over to our local WalMart (which really isn’t local at all) to get cat stuff–food, litter, all cheaper there then in the grocery store.  A small bag of kitty Iams is $7.49 at WalMart and $9.19 at my grocery store, and with a $3.00 coupon, cha-ching!  I buy litter, one bag of Iams (already have two bags at home) and 40 cans of wet food.  Then there is the small toy for my son, the headband for my daughter, the liquid soap, tampons and laundry detergent.  And where do I go next?

Electronics department, of course. I tossed out my cordless phone several months ago.  The damn thing’s battery kept dying after being off the hook for only half a day, and it was the second brand-new battery I had purchased.  In the trash.  But that left us with two corded phones, and the one in my room did not have caller ID.  It’s one of those OLD slimline phones, and I hated not knowing who was calling–who I don’t have to answer to.

So, not too exciting, but enough to make me smile.  Plus it’s that sleek silver and black.  A V-Tech 5.8 ghz.  Hopefully, after realigning phone wires and outlets in my room, it won’t suck.  LOL, that’s officially my word for the week.

Well, I did two things toward my sucky writing today.  I began brainstorming the new idea that felt kinda blah-ish today, and pushed myself to write the first scene of Tide of Darkness.  Of course, it ended up being 5 pages (yay, my daily goal) but only 997 words (suuuccks!).  I’m mentally pooped and need a plan for tomorrow.  Even though I know the next scene is in Brody’s POV, I do not know where he is or what he’s doing.  I’m not a pantser, and I like it that way for a reason.  So, I’m not moving forward until I have at least the next 5 chapters outlined.  I may even work on the blah-ish idea after dinner.  And speaking of which, I think the fish is burning. Catch ya later!

I am having one of those “I suck at writing” moments.  Now, I know I don’t truly suck, but I can’t seem to get going.

I’m starting my new paranormal suspense, and the words are stuck.  I can’t seem to get them out, and I’m furious.  I really need to get rolling, and that may be the problem.  I’m either so focused and determined to write this awesome first draft with this dark voice (and get a good chapter or two done before April 7), or I’m just not feeling this story right now.

It sounds great and has terrific potential, but…  But I don’t know.  Grrr! Maybe it will go away?

I decided to not work on the new idea, from last night.  There is no sense in torturing myself on purpose. 

This morning has been another clean, get things non-writing done, and then sit down to write..but then find every excuse to not put words on the paper.  Right now, my daughter and I are going to watch I Am Legend.  I’m figuring that while I love sci-fi, it’s not likely it will spur any new ideas–hopefully.

So I’m cooking dinner and my 7 month old kitty decides to become spastic and run around the kitchen, jumping up and down the counters and sink, rubbing his back along every surface.  I couldn’t make out if something was on him or he was just playing.  Crazy kitty is what he was.  I picked him up to check him out, and he did not like that at all.  I eventually had to hold him down but only managed to check out his ears, which were pink but clear.  And 10-15 minutes later he was fine.  Absolutely no problems. 

I still don’t know what his crazy issue was–this is the second day he’s done it.  It’s odd.  I’m slightly concerned.  I’ll have to Google it, ask some cat friends (ask the humans who own cats).

I spent the day (mind you, I didn’t get up until noon) folding three loads of laundry, completing some paperwork and writing two business letters, recoding and updating the Diva blogs and websites and then sending the mentors their mentee’s applications.  Ok, so it doesn’t look like that much written out, but it took hours.

Now, it’s 8 PM and I can either get some writing done, surf the Net or play the Sims 2.

Oh, and I was watching the end of some Lifetime movie about a woman who believes her infant daughter is evil, and I got an idea for a new damn book.  Can you imagine?  It’s not like I don’t already have a dozen ideas I’m working with.  And I can never get ahead.  Although I’m sure it would suck if I one day didn’t have any ideas, but this is insane.  There’s just too many.  This new one is just a nugget, but it has definitely piqued my curiosity.

My mentor will probably kill me if I try to change plans now. lol

So, I spent the day re-doing my MySpace page and configuring this blog/site.  Another day designing, and getting no writing done.  Luckily it’s not often that I get the desire to work on graphics, but when I do, I have to see the job completely done.  I can’t just work a little this day and some more tomorrow.  No, it becomes a huge itch that must be scratched right then and until it ends.  If I had these urges monthly or more frequent I’d be in trouble.

There are two weeks until the Mentor Program begins (did I post about that on my last blog? probably not), and until I need to buckle down and get serious about my latest WIP, Tide of Darkness.  I’m very excited about it, and I can’t wait until it’s done.  I planned to spend these pre-mentor weeks outlining, but while the story is still very much desirable, I am having no motivation to outline.   My brain isn’t wanting to figure out what happens in chapter 10.  This could be no big deal or a major catastrophe. ;)  We’ll see how it goes.  I can either spend this weekend lecturing and demanding something or…

I can work on a short story that I want to write, but it too is not wanting to be outlined.  Just write it and don’t worry about the outline, you say?  Yeah, I’ve done that in the past, and it’s not very pretty.  I don’t need to know every minuscule detail, but a fleshed out synopsis wouldn’t hurt at this point.  After dinner tonight, (with no more designing to do) I’ll see which idea wants to be worked on, and I’ll go from there.  But can I write a 20K story in two weeks?  *shrugs*

I’ll let you know how it goes.  For now, I must catch the linguine before it becomes mush, and I like my pasta al dente.